I've stumbled

across good people and bad people. people that inspire you and motivate you to do everything to your fullest potential and the people with no ambition who want to drag you down with them or influence you to make no use of your passion and talent. I believe from anothers' point of view i am portrayed as one of the people that inspire and motivate. But then again, thats' what i like to believe. If i fail to portray myself as that to you, tell me please cause theres nothing more that i hate then being one of those worthless pieces of shit with no ambition for life and can only talk of success but not build their path to it.

MM

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."

another good weekend

so ive spent 3 weeeknds in a row drunk off either tequila or wine coolers. finally got to spend time with my bestest friend ever and her new mac computer, lol. i want a mac so bad now, im disgusted by the PC that im using -__-
i had all day yesterday and today for myself to have time to think about wtf i wanna do with my life. and i basically got it. this whole track thing is gonna get me a full ride to Duke sine i finally caught there eye and im just gonna major in communications. "but brea why not ucla"-_____- ucla is lame and way to close to my mother. Besies north carolina= bomb black guys and a chance to spread my wings and live life on my own. "but brea, boys shouldnt be a factor about where you should go to colege" I know but thats not why i wanna go to Duke. I looked into their communications program and its legit along with their track, campus, and studen-athlete guarantees. the bombies are just a plus :D lol

SO yeah, the plan is for me to just sweep cif and state right quick and commit to duke right away. call me crazy, but i just know what i want.

vent #1

week by week im starting to learn new things. about people. about myself. about my family. just life in general. at this point i know i am very determinded and ambitious, so i KNOW ill be successful, but that it wont be that easy. at this point i know which one of my friends are true to me, and even though its a handful, im okay with that. i know that im just a social butterfly, and a hysterical drunk hhahah. i know that i love my sisters more than anything in this world and that my mother and my brother have yet to pull themselves together and who knows what their gonna do when i leave for college in 2 years.
i also learned that i dont give a fuck about the criticism of people who arent on my level but have the nerve to think/talk down on me. HA i have a few scholarships on my hands, you really think i have time for you guys? thats comedy -____-
im learning from life now than i ever did before. some of these lessons suck, but im grateful for them.

yeah yeah yeah

but its not my fault :[
you thinkg i CHOOSE to wake up at 3:30 to finish my AP english essay and journalism article?
heres my excuse.
seee after school i had to watch the tennis match because thats what i was doing my article on and it didn't end till around six. the the homie called me up about getting my hair did for homecomming this saturday and i said HEY WHY NOT :D
and i dont know about you guys but i cannot sit on a lap top and get a relaxer and a few tracks done. i got home at around 11 pm, lookin good if i might add, and decided to take a show bow and hit the sheets cause i need SOME kind of energy in my system, so i wake up at 3:30, internet explorer said hey how about we go sleep so brea can't download the essay topic from the schools website. i had to wake poor people up at 4:00 asking them for the topic. so i got it, typed my shit up, and here i am in need of capuccino, coffee, shit ANYTHING with some espresso.
but i look on the bright side. HAIR DID, ITS FRIDAY, HOMECOMMING TOMORROW NIGHT. YA DIG.

i want one so bad

i know its kind of a business phone, but i'm busy as fuck and i use my email more than ever this year so i think im pretty much obligated to get one. the homie just got on and she let me fiddle with it today in class. it was like a piece of heaven in my hand.
so jealous. :/